just as gone
I feel just like arjuna
when he is in the field
or like alice
gerrard upon the
wandering road,
still just as gone —
thru kanawha valley
I chanced to stray
sugar creek
ground me out
brusque
moon w/ a star
in its cup,
wonderful sad.
I can feel it comin
like the back of my hand
one thing about forsythia
I saw the first flower of spring today
— forsythia —
horses rushing towards us
gold ring flashed in the air
I was too late, too late
or was I, articulate petals
of forsythia
sea lavender at Swami’s edge
cuts a fine figure gainst the sea
and its road of gold
once my uncle almost drowned
in a two-wave holddown
from that dim memory
a form bobbed up
the shape of my heart
when the moon is bright
I cannot live alone
any more than my poems can
all growed up
tho we fall down
when shame is thick
about our waists
attitudinal
in grim opposition
to the masterworks
of divine centures
ink had flowed
— the only rushing
of my lover’s voice
thru the reeds —
tripled in hindsight
or else calibrate
to a more manageable woe
what mediates entanglement
and could
I walk through
the adumbriated networks
lunar ateliers’
iridescend gondoliers
the color of your truelove’s eyes
god said find a door
and paint it
Julian Tanya (it/xe/they/he) is a poet and songwriter, the author of Wild and Blue (forthcoming Wave Books, spring 2027), and (as Julian Talamantez Brolaski) of Of Mongrelitude (Wave Books, 2017), Advice for Lovers (City Lights, 2012), and gowanus atropolis (Ugly Duckling Presse, 2011). Julian plays in the band Juan & the Pines, and released the EP Glittering Forest in 2019, and a full-length solo album It’s Okay Honey in 2023 (both from True West), with an accompanying Songbook from Wave Books. Julian was the 2023–2024 Bagley Wright lecturer, a 2021 Pew Foundation Fellow, and the recipient of the 2020 Cy Twombly Award for Poetry. Its poems were recently included in Queer Nature (2022), When the Light of the World was Subdued, Our Songs Came Through: A Norton Anthology of Native Nations Poetry (2020) and We Want It All: An Anthology of Radical Trans Poetics (Nightboat 2020). Julian is the co-editor, with Crisosto Apache, of The Starry Field: A Gathering of New Two-Spirit and Indigequeer Poetry, forthcoming from Litmus Press in fall 2026. is a poet and country musician, the author of Wild and Blue (forthcoming Wave Books 2027), Of Mongrelitude (Wave Books 2017), Advice for Lovers (City Lights 2012), and gowanus atropolis (Ugly Duckling Presse 2011). Julian is the co-editor, with Crisosto Apache, of The Starry Field: A Gathering of New Two-Spirit and Indigiqueer Poetry, forthcoming from Litmus Press in fall 2026.